WHISPER.

Kadang-kadang rasa ada.
Tapi, kadang-kadang seperti tiada.
Aku mengharapkan ianya sentiasa ada.


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A GIRL.

There's a girl
Named Syafiqah Farhana

There's a girl
Who often feels insecure
And that's her

There's a girl
Who cannot live alone
Without her daddy and mommy
Also her brothers and sister

There's a girl
Who is imperfect
But always want to make it perfect

There's a girl
Who always smile
And no one ever know what she's been through
And no one will ever know
Except her

There's a girl
Who can be easily passed through
See right through her
And went away

There's a girl
Who always cared and loved too much
Until that person become her world
And that's really her

There's a girl
Who puts trust easily
And regret it later
Without thinking it first.

And that's me.

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TERBAYANG.

Aku selalu terbayang mende mende mengarut jadi kat aku. Contohnya macam :

1. Time tengah drive, tiba-tiba ada kete laju dari arah bertentangan rempuh dari depan. Eeeee macam mana la agaknya aku time tu. Nauzubillah.

2. Plan bercuti ngan kawan-kawan tapi tipu parents. Lepas tu, mende tak elok jadi kat sana. Contohnya macam accident ke kan. Tu la orang cakap, tak dapat restu keluarga memang tak jalan la satu mende tu. Hah lepas tu pihak hospital call parents inform pasal ni. Eee sedihnya.

3. Nak potong bawang, tapi terpotong jari. EUUWWW! Ngiluuuuu!

4. Siang perut ikan, lepas tu time korek perut ikan tu, terjumpa jari ke. Eeee mesti menggeletar lutut. Haha.

5. Balik rumah dalam keadaan gelap. Lepas tu bukak lampu, rupanya ada orang depan kita tunggu dengan pisau! Argh pengaruh filem sangat awok ni Syafiqah!

6. Timang kucing tinggi tinggi. Tibe tibe time tengah timang, kucing tu gelepor terus cakar muka dan sebagainya. (Dah pernah kene sebab tu fobia)

7. Terjumpa mayat terapung. Haaa ni memang buat aku kecut perut lah. So far tak pernah lagi..dan TAKNAK.

8. Bawak basikal atas lantai licin, lepas tu tayar tergelincir, jatuh muka dulu especially BIBIR. Ughh sakitnya. (Dah pernah kene jugak)

9. Orang ikot dari belakang. Lepas tu tarik masuk kete. Ikat-ikat ape semua. Lepas tu bawak ke rumah apa entah, lepas tu dia sembelih nak ambik organ-organ. Bunuh la maksudnya. Ngeri!

10. Turun tangga tapi terpijak sampai tiga anak tangga. Or even empat terus. Haihh ape la nasib agaknya?

11. Memandangkan dapur kat rumah aku bermasalah, api tak boleh nak nyala, kene tekan lama lama baru nyala, so aku selalu bayangkan time tengah tengok api tu, tibe tibe api jadi besar. BOOM habis muka kau.

12. Pakai heels lepas tu terpeleot. Bukan masalah malu kat sini. Kalau aku tak malu pun sebab dah biasa terpeleot sampai kene nganjing. Ok tipu, malu jugak sebenarnye. Tapi ni sebab sampai salah urat ke, kaki senget ke. Haa takot juge itu.

13. Time nak repair lampu ke, kipas ke, nak pasang plug ke, ha kene karen. Dah la time tu sorang sorang. Tak ke hangus?

14. Tengah study kat tepi tingkap, lepas tu, ada orang tegur tepi tingkap dan kita pun berborak lah.
Then baru perasan kita study kat tingkat dua. Seronok.

15. Blackout. Memang gelap gila la. Dalam usaha nak mencari apa-apa yang patut untuk dipaut, tibe tibe ada orang tarik kaki, or terpijak mende mende tak diingini seperti ular, biawak. Aaaaaaa!

16. Orang or couple gadoh depan mata sampai bertumbuk/bertikam/berbunuh. Wuuuu tengok wayang free
la.

17. Tengah angkat pinggan/cawan kaca yang banyak, tibe tibe tersadung something. Lepas tu jatuh. PECAH! nak buat muka macam mana ha time tu?

18. Lalu kat kawasan kaca. Pinggan ke cawan ke. Lepas tu nak ambik satu tengok. Time letak tu terkena cawan sebelah. Lepastu yang sebelah tu kene yang sebelah dan seterusnya kemudian jatuh la semua.

19. Main buai, lepas tu dah hayun tinggi tinggi, rantai putus! Eeeeee takotnyeeeeeee!

20. Nak langkah longkag. Ingat dah lepas, rupenye belum. Lepas tu jatuh la macam nangka tapi wangi sikit.

Mende mende macam ni lah selalu ligat dalam otak aku. Mintak selisih la semua ni. Amin.

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SEMPURNA.

Bila sebut tentang sempurna, semua orang mesti tak puas hati padanya. Allah SWT telah menciptakan kita sama rata, semua ada cacat celanya dan tiada siapa yang sempurna. Yang sempurna hanyalah Dia. Sebab tu ada ayat mengatakan "yang baik datangnya dari Dia dan yang tak baik datangnya dari kelemahan kita sendiri". Kita sebagai manusia harus terima seadanya.

Tapi, ada jugak yang tak boleh terima. Macam aku, aku memang terpaksa redha. Aku dilahirkan jauh berbeza dari orang lain. (sila rujuk entry ini untuk maklumat lanjut) Aku ada kelemahan aku sendiri. Dah 22 tahun aku hidup dengan diri aku ni. So macam dah lali dan imun. Cuma aku tak suka bila harus berhadapan dengan orang baru. Aku memang tak biasa. Yaaa, aku kan lain dari yang lain. You guys got what I mean kan? It feels like, rasa nak record je bila setiap kali orang tanya, then bagi dia dengar je recording tu. Ok zzz. Whatever it is, aku perlu terima kerana semua ni hanyalah pinjaman dari Allah, semua ni hak Dia.


Everytime aku down, aku akan fikir, lebih ramai lagi orang yang kurang bernasib baik dari aku. You know, macam takde tangan, kaki, dan sewaktu dengannya. At least aku boleh lagi menikmati banyak benda yang dorang tak boleh lalui. Aku bersyukur. And setiap kali aku down jugak, aku akan teringat ayat abah, "kita jangan bandingkan diri kita dengan orang yang dirasakan sempurna dan cantik, sebab sampai bila-bila pun kita akan rasa kita ni takde apa atau buruk and what so ever yang boleh dikaitkan dengan unsur negatif dalam diri. So I keep holding on to that. Thanks abah for always makes me better. 


So guys, dalam apa jua keadaan, just bear in mind that semua manusia tu tak sempurna. Semua pasti ada cacat celanya. Tak percaya? Lihat diri anda di cermin saat ini, semestinya ada saja yang anda akan rungutkan. So that's it. Just do what you want and never make your weakness as your number one's obstacles! 

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HIJRAH

Aku tengok dari hari ke hari, ramai kawan-kawan dah berhijrah dari baik ke lebih baik. Alhamdulillah. Yelah, sekarang dah akhir zaman, kita kene lah sedar-sedar sendiri kan. Insyaallah aku hamba Allah yang seterusnya. Doakanlah.

Akhir-akhir ni, aku asyik membayangkan kematian je. Dan kematian pn banyak yang terjadi di sekeliling aku yang membuatkan aku gerun dan sedikit memberi kesedaran.

Buat masa sekarang, aku tengah mendalami ilmu agama, memperbetulkan solat semua. Solat adalah tiang agama, so that is the most important thing to be done. Taknak lah berubah, tetibe solat pun entah kemana. Nak berubah kene 200% ready. Give our soul to the Creator. Bende bukan main-main.

Aku amat suka dorongan, tapi aku sangat benci desakan. So please, aku nak berhijrah, dengan cara aku. Dan aku tak suka menunjuk-nunjuk untuk berubah. Ada jugak yang menyindir-nyindir, tak payah nak menyindir sangat lah kan. Allah Maha Mengetahui, Dia tahu apa yang tersirat kat hati hamba Dia.

Just for now, aku sentiasa berdoa kepada Allah, supaya lembutkan hati aku untuk berubah, dan mendekatkan diri denganNya. Insyaallah the time will come =)

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A REAL MAN (PART TWO)

Love Her When She Sips On Your Coffee Or Tea. She Only Wants To Make Sure it Tastes just Right For You.

Love Her When She Pushes You To Pray. She Wants To Be With You in Jannah ( Paradise ).

Love HerWhen She Asks You To Play With The Kids. She Did Not “Make” Them On Her Own. 
Love Her...When She is Jealous. Out Of All The Men She Can Have, She Chose You

Love Her When She Has Annoying Little Habits That Drives You Nuts. You Have Them Too.

Love HerWhen Her Cooking is Bad. She Tries.

Love Her When She Looks Dishevelled in The Morning. She Always Grooms Herself Up Again.

Love her When She Asks To Help With The Kids Homework. She Only Wants You To Be Part Of The Home.

Love her...When She Asks if She Looks Fat. Your Opinion Counts, So Tell Her Shes Beautiful.

Love Her When She Looks Beautiful. Shes Yours So Appreciate Her.

Love Her...When She Spends Hours To Get Ready. She Only Wants To Look Her Best For You.

Love Her when she buys you gifts you dont like. Smile and tell her its what youve always wanted.

Love Her When She Has Developed A Bad Habit. You Have Many More And With Wisdom And Politeness You Have All The Time To Help Her Change.

Love Her When She Cries For Absolutely Nothing. Dont Ask, Tell Her its Going To Be Okay

Love Her When She Suffers From PMS. Buy Chocolate, Rub Her Feet And Back And Just Chat To Her (trust me this works!)

Love Her When Whatever You Do is Not Pleasing. It Happens And Will Pass

Love Her When She Stains Your Clothes. You Needed A New Shirt Anyway

Love Her When She Tells You How To Drive. She Only Wants You To Be Safe.

Love Her When She Argues. She Only Wants To Make Things Right For Both

Love Her She is Yours. You Dont Need Any Other Special Reason !!!!
All This Forms Part Of A Womans Character. Women Are Part Of Your Life And Should Be Treated As The Queen.

 

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MAN, READ THIS. JUST READ.

‎♥ "A real Boyfriend." ♥

When she stares at your mouth
-Kiss her
When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you
-Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
-Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
-Ask her whats wrong?

When she ignores you
-Give her your attention !

When she pulls away
-Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
-Tell her she's beautiful ^.^

When you see her start crying
-Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
-Sneak up and hug her waist from behind :)

When she's scared
-Protect her

When she says, just do whatever you want
-Stop doing that if you feel it is wrong.

When she steals your favorite hoodie
-Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
-Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
-Reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
-Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
-she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
-Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you
-Bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
-Keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
-dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
-she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
-she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking, BABY?"

If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will :
-Call you
-Kiss you
-Love you
-Text you

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